Good evening, chat! How y’all doing? I hope everyone’s had—or is having—a good day.

As for me, it was just an okay day. Nothing special happened, but nothing crazy either. I wanted to go for a walk outside this morning, but the gloomy weather had other plans, so I ended up pacing around my garage again. I was already running late for work, so I couldn’t hit my usual morning quota of 3,000 steps. Still, I managed to walk for 20 minutes, which is better than nothing.

On another note, I saw my mom cry today. I won’t go into details, but let’s just say it had something to do with me. Seeing her like that made me rethink a lot of things—especially what I’ve been doing these past few months and how useless I’ve felt.

You see, the reason I want to succeed so badly in life is because I want my parents to have the retirement they deserve. More than that, I want them to have a comfortable, fulfilling life once they retire. But looking at where I’m at right now, I don’t think I’ll be able to give them that anytime soon. Seeing my mom cry was a wake-up call. It made me realize how little time I actually have—how everything around me keeps moving forward while I feel stuck in the same place I was a year ago. Not much has changed, really. I want to believe it has, but if I’m being honest with myself… it hasn’t.

Chat, I cannot emphasize enough how god-awful my internet is today. It’s been horri-fricking-ble. I legit couldn’t get anything done. Hell, even my games felt griefed by my ISP. It literally took three minutes just to load the login page of my CMS. Like, what kind of third-world sh— is going on?

I’ve restarted my router three times, man. Three fricking times. And nothing. I’m paying a hefty amount every month for this below-average connection. Even the speed test website is struggling—it’s literally just showing the markups with no styling, lmfao.

Anyway, like I said, I got absolutely nothing meaningful done today. Goes to show how much I rely on having a decent connection. Almost everything I do from the moment I wake up requires the internet. If I’m not outside walking or running, or reading in my room, I’m online doing something. I don’t watch TV. Hell, I don’t even own a TV. I don’t listen to the radio either—that’s what YouTube is for nowadays.

And most importantly? My income sources are all online.

Please, for the love of god—Internet gods, help your boy.

Good evening, y'all! I hope y'all are doing well. We're officially one week away from March, and honestly, I don't think I'm ready, chat. My god. February flew by like a fricking jet. I can't even remember half the things that happened this month. I swear to god, mang, there's no way February is about to be over. I still remember being at 148 pounds at the end of January like it was last week. No kidding.

What the hell happened? They say time flies when you're having fun, but I don’t remember having that much fun this month. If anything, it was the opposite. The past two weeks have been rough. I was literally so down just a few days ago, lmao. I guess time flies when you're stressing out too.

Anyway, enough of that. I wanna talk a little about my day. It wasn’t particularly special, but I’d say it went fine. Was I productive? Not really. In fact, I probably spent more time playing video games than anything else. Hey, mang, I deserve it. This week was hellish for me.

I'm hoping for a better week next week, but honestly? I doubt it. It'll probably be just as bad with everything that’s coming up. I hate this, chat. I wanna be positive so badly, but I just can't. The anxiousness and fear are just way too much.